| ( @ 2004-09-28 19:30:00 |
Some guy instant messaged me telling me about how much he wanted to be a girl. I feel kind of bad showing his gross pictures to everyone, but they are just too fucking weird to not post them. At least I was nice enough to alter his screen name and save him some embarrassment. Not like he has other, more important things to be embarrassed about. Like being seen in public. It is a sick, sad world that we live in these days.
bong13 [6:11 PM]: hi. i was wondering if i could ask you a question? i'm looking for a girls opinion.
kameIe [6:11 PM]: uh, sure
kameIe [6:11 PM]: what is it?
bong13 [6:11 PM]: thanks. i really hope you dont think i sound stupid for asking this, but do you think it's dumb for a guy to wanna look more like a girl? even if he's not gay
kameIe [6:12 PM]: in what sense do you want to look more like a girl?
bong13 [6:12 PM]: well, like have more of a female figure i guess. like feminine body
kameIe [6:13 PM]: ... like tits and stuff?
bong13 [6:13 PM]: yes exactly
kameIe [6:13 PM]: all right
kameIe [6:13 PM]: and you are expecting to find a girlfriend with said tits, correct?
bong13 [6:13 PM]: well, eventually, but not like rushing to find one
kameIe [6:14 PM]: i see.
kameIe [6:14 PM]: and why do you feel this way about yourself?
bong13 [6:15 PM]: well, i grew up with my cousins and they were both girls. as long as i can remember i felt jealous of them because of how they looked. i remember growing up and i wished i could be like them.
bong13 [6:15 PM]: i feel so envious of the girls i know
kameIe [6:15 PM]: have you considered being a drag queen?
bong13 [6:16 PM]: well, dressing up wasn't doing anything for me. i talked to a girl i'm friends with about how i felt. she told me to start taking her birth control pills and some female hormone pills her mom had. so i have been taking them for awhile now.
bong13 [6:17 PM]: i'm afraid to tell any of my guy friends. i've been avoiding them
kameIe [6:17 PM]: why have you been avoiding them?
kameIe [6:17 PM]: you should be proud of your decision.
bong13 [6:17 PM]: well, stuff has been happening to me ever since i started taking all of these pills.
kameIe [6:17 PM]: is blood leaking out of your pp yet?
bong13 [6:18 PM]: no. will that happen?
kameIe [6:18 PM]: yes.
kameIe [6:18 PM]: and out of your pooper as well.
kameIe [6:19 PM]: i suggest you start douching it.
kameIe [6:19 PM]: have you developed breasts?!
bong13 [6:19 PM]: yes and i look a lot thinner
kameIe [6:19 PM]: are they saggy?
bong13 [6:19 PM]: i dont think so. i would show you, but i think i look kinda dumb in the pics i have
kameIe [6:19 PM]: let me see.
bong13 [6:19 PM]: but i dont have a shirt on
kameIe [6:20 PM]: it's fine.
bong13 [6:20 PM]: sent

kameIe [6:22 PM]: hmm
kameIe [6:22 PM]: are they leaking milk?
bong13 [6:22 PM]: no
kameIe [6:22 PM]: hmm.
bong13 [6:23 PM]: but it feels swollen and sore on the sides and kinda itches
kameIe [6:23 PM]: well that is normal.
bong13 [6:23 PM]: i'm not used to how it feels. my chest feels too sensitive now
kameIe [6:25 PM]: are you regretting your decision?
bong13 [6:25 PM]: well, i wish they looked different.
kameIe [6:25 PM]: like?
bong13 [6:25 PM]: like some of the girls i see on tv
bong13 [6:25 PM]: more round and bigger
kameIe [6:25 PM]: have you thought of getting breast implants?
bong13 [6:25 PM]: do they look real?
kameIe [6:25 PM]: yes.
kameIe [6:25 PM]: are they?
bong13 [6:26 PM]: are they what?
kameIe [6:26 PM]: real
bong13 [6:26 PM]: breast implants?
bong13 [6:26 PM]: i dont know anyone that has them
kameIe [6:26 PM]: i see.
kameIe [6:26 PM]: well
kameIe [6:26 PM]: have you talked to your doctor about any of this?
kameIe [6:26 PM]: or a psychologist?
bong13 [6:26 PM]: no. i dont have any medical insurance
kameIe [6:26 PM]: they can give you really good advice.
kameIe [6:27 PM]: oh.
bong13 [6:27 PM]: i feel fine so far.
bong13 [6:27 PM]: but it's weird how thin i got since i started taking all of this stuff. i also dont have to shave anymore.
kameIe [6:27 PM]: shave what?
kameIe [6:27 PM]: your face?
kameIe [6:27 PM]: or ... ?
bong13 [6:27 PM]: yes.. my face
bong13 [6:28 PM]: almost all the hair on my arms is gone too
bong13 [6:28 PM]: even the hair on my legs is less obvious.
kameIe [6:31 PM]: hmm, i see.
bong13 [6:32 PM]: do i have to wear a bra now?
kameIe [6:33 PM]: uh you should, before your tits sag
bong13 [6:33 PM]: i only have one and when i wear it, it makes them more obvious and they look rounder
kameIe [6:34 PM]: isn't that what you want?
bong13 [6:34 PM]: well, not all the time. sometimes i want it to be less obvious.
kameIe [6:34 PM]: why?
kameIe [6:34 PM]: why are you ashamed?
kameIe [6:35 PM]: this is what you wanted.
bong13 [6:35 PM]: i wish they were naturally rounder
bong13 [6:35 PM]: but i dont think i can really pass as a girl right now
kameIe [6:35 PM]: oh so you want to pass as a girl?
kameIe [6:35 PM]: do you have a wig?
bong13 [6:35 PM]: nope
kameIe [6:35 PM]: i'm really sorry
kameIe [6:35 PM]: but i have to go
bong13 [6:36 PM]: oh it's ok
bong13 [6:36 PM]: thank you for talking to me
kameIe [6:36 PM]: i just think maybe if you talked to a psychologist or something
kameIe [6:36 PM]: they could give you advice.
kameIe [6:36 PM]: good luck.
bong13 [6:36 PM]: thanks.. goodnight